I have always enjoyed writing my thoughts in daily journals, diaries, gratitude lists, letters, notes, etc. I love reading non-fiction, short stories, biographies, humorist essays, etc. One of my favorites was Nora Ephron. She made me belly laugh so many times with her zany humor! Lately I have written a few essays, some with humor and some without! My world needs more humor on a daily basis just to get through the insanity we have to endure daily with our political reality. I will share my writings on this page, it does take courage to show my vulnerable side, but if my words and humor can make your day more Zenful then I have accomplished my mission!
Dreams of Courage & FAITH!
Quote by Walt Disney:
” All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”
I’m not sure when Walt Disney wrote this quote but I imagine it was after he was successful with his business endeavors! Courage is the key to so many aspects of life. Again, it reminds me of my acronym for the word FAITH, because you can’t really have courage without having a Fearless Attitude in Thy Heart. It takes courage to escape from our comfort zones, and attempt new ways of doing things and embarking on new adventures. I have always been very independent and self-sufficient starting out at a very young age due to family circumstances. Those traits built character in me and created a sense of courage in my heart and soul. All these years later, I do consider myself very courageous, as I have moved out of my comfort zone to relocate to two new cities on my own in the past 12 years. It definitely was out of my comfort zone, and I felt vulnerable and at times even somewhat fearful since I was all alone. But in no time I was able to make new friends and find my way, and it was always a wonderful adventure and new chapter in my life.
I am at that similar crossroads in my life right now, pondering a decision on whether or not I should take the leap of FAITH out of my comfort zone! It has to feel right in my heart and soul since it’s a major move and costly endeavor at a crucial time in my life. I will continue to work out the details, and soon make a courageous decision to pursue my next dream! As we all know, Walt Disney sure was successful in his courageous pursuits!
Quote by Harriet Tubman:
“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”
Wow! I absolutely love this quote and it is very inspiring to know that one simple dream could change the world. Resilience, patience, and passion are all it takes to make your dreams come true. For me I would add focus, determination, courage and faith! I remember coming up with a song title and lyrics which became an acronym for the word FAITH: Fearless attitude in thy heart. It takes courage to be fearless. I have heard of Harriet Tubman and googled her background to learn more about her. She was an amazing woman and has gone down in history for all that she has done for people less fortunate and enslaved in this world. We need someone like Harriet Tubman today to help correct all these atrocities that are going on in America right now.
Ironically in my little dream book Harriet Tubman’s quote is right next to a Donald Trump quote!! I couldn’t believe it when I saw that a few years ago, and recently when I turned to the page I just couldn’t even look at his quote so I put a big X through his words! See the picture below. His quote sounds exactly like his presidency and his twitter rantings: “I like thinking big, if you’re going to be thinking anything you might as well think big.”! He has no vocabulary, he speaks from his a******! I just can’t take the fact that he is the president of these United States, and how half of the country voted for him I will never understand. It’ll be over soon I hope and we can start once again being proud to be Americans.
Getting back to this inspiring quote by Harriet Tubman, I will continue to dream. I’ve always been a dreamer; a daydreamer and night dreamer and I will trust in my heart and soul that if I dream it I can accomplish it! I will continue to read these dream quotes and search my soul for what my dream is to accomplish. I have so many dreams, I need to focus on one and make it reality, make it my way forward to help my fellow Americans. I believe: “What goes around comes around” and “To Give is to Receive”. Thank you Harriet Tubman for all you’ve done for this country. I honor your empathy, determination, and passion to help those in need. Namaste
Channel Surfing Syndrome
Signing off as the KVETCH QUEEN!
Dreams, Reality and The “In-Between”!
Happy Freedom Day – Keep on Dreaming!
“To dream anything that you want to dream. That’s the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed.”
It’s time to change the subject of this current dark side of free will, and to get on the positive side of it in my own life.
I am extremely grateful to have this time in my life right now, to have total freedom to wake up every day and do whatever I please. I’m trying to figure out how to do this for the rest of my existence, and at the same time earn an income doing what I love, and doing my best to make a difference in this world. If I can dream it I can do it! I just have to find the courage, the stamina, the resilience, the hope, the desire, and the guidance to find what my true Soul Desire is Dreaming to Become.
One of my favorite quotes of all time is by James Allen: “Dream lofty dreams, and as you dream, so you shall become. Your vision is the promise of what you shall one day be; your ideal is the prophecy of what you shall at last unveil.”
I think dreaming is so fascinating, I would love to explore more about the dream state in human beings? I wonder if other species dream as humans. I remember many times watching my dog and cat sleeping and acting as if they were chasing something, or seeing something in there dreams! Is it just our imagination that creates these alternative realities while we sleep? Why are there some days when we don’t dream it all? Why are there some dreams when we dream them, we know that they include bits and pieces of our day, and an entirely new story emerges which includes all of those happenings throughout that day creating different perspectives?
What are we to deem from our dreams, are they lessons, are they clues, what exactly are they? I know there are many books written about dreams and the meanings of dreams, especially the recurring dreams that people have. It’s all very fascinating and I would love to try to figure out what my dreams mean on a deeper soul level. There is another quote I recently read that intrigued me by James Allen: “Dreams are the seedlings of realities.”
All in all I’d have to say dreams are extremely fascinating and I’m grateful to enjoy them, and see inside my soul each and every night when I go into that dream state or dimension.
I love those moments when I might think, am I am woman dreaming of being a butterfly or am I a butterfly dreaming of being a woman? Keep on ZEN DREAMING!
Thinking about my Mom today who has been gone three decades of my life this year! Unfortunately the first three decades of our life together was filled with sickness, sorrow and pain, but we got by with love. Those are some of the lyrics to the first song I ever wrote when I started learning how to play piano, I call it “Mother and Daughter’s Love”. It all sounds very sad, and it was sad, but we did get by with love. I will always have a dear place in my heart for my Mom, and so much empathy for what she had to struggle through in her adult life. She was blessed with two beautiful children, but during the pregnancy of her second child, who was me, she was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Those were the 1950’s and there were no cures, and there were no medications to even relieve the suffering from this horrendous disease of MS at that time.
On this Mother’s Day, 30 years after my Mom’s passing, I only wish down deep in my soul that I could have a visit with her today. What a joy it would be to sit next to her, holding hands, looking into her beautiful brown loving eyes, seeing her smile, and most of all to see her healthy, vibrant, happy, and joyful! Free from all the sickness, sorrow, and pain that she had to experience in her lifetime. Happy Mother’s Day Mom, that’s how I will envision you on the other side, and someday I really do hope we can meet in the afterlife. Maybe share a bowl of butter pecan ice cream, play some Gin Rummy, and hear you tap your fingernails on the table while thinking about what card to put down next!
My heart breaks that you had to live in a nursing home after my 18th birthday for all those years. Such a young beautiful woman surrounded by all the elderly people in such a horrid environment. Thankfully our family was able to find two very decent places, and on all of our visits you did seem to be happy enough. Somehow you adapted, and made the best of your circumstances, making friends to pass the time playing cards with, and watching the soap operas on TV! I always felt sad when I left you there sitting in a wheelchair, totally dependent on others around you, without any freedom or independence to come and go as you please. It just seemed like you were imprisoned in your body with this sickness. It ruined everything for you in the prime of your life as a young mother, and a new loving wife. So many broken-hearted dreams.
Tell me why oh why oh?
Tell me why oh why oh?
Did we share such sadness
in both our lives
in both our lives
Tell me why oh why oh?
Tell me why oh why oh?
Mother and daughters destiny
in sickness, sorrow and pain.
But we got by with love.
I forgive you mother dear.
Please forgive me too.
And I will always love you.
All Rights Reserved 2013 Lyrics and Piano Music created by Marlene Rose Besso 2/4/2012
Seeking the purpose in my lifetime
March 24, 2018
Sharing an essay I wrote about my love for Garry Shandling on the second anniversary of his passing.
Over this past weekend I tuned into YouTube with my Apple TV and found all the “Garry Shandling” interviews and stand up shows and everything else I could immerse myself into, as I grieved his loss. I learned so many more interesting aspects of his personality and found myself loving and missing him even more! I loved hearing some of his stories, the one when he was on vacation with his girlfriend in Hana (Maui) and he broke his leg rescuing his newly temporarily adopted dog she named Shep. And then how the Universe ultimately reunited him with Shep in Los Angeles. When he brought the dog out on stage after a stand- up routine, my heart melted. He was animal lover, just like me, and probably got it from his Mom, who owned a pet shop. I loved the story about his asking George Carlin to read his jokes when he was just starting out….and as he said: Carlin said, “he was very green, but he was funny on every page, and he should pursue a career in comedy!
“National Puppy Day”
A Story I wrote 3/15/2002 about my puppy: Rosie and friends!
“Rosie’s First Day of Spring”
By Marlene Rose Besso
|Rosie’s first night playing in the mirror|
|Riches & Leo The Cat|
|Rosie and Mookie kitty snuggling|
|Rosie and Mookie and Purple Bunny|
|Bunny Rose or Jackson Bunny at the shelter!|
|Jackson and Marlene (together for 12 years)|
|Jackson Bunny and Mookie playing|
|Mookie the Cat with his yellow chicky (we were together 16 years)|
65th Birthday / Deathday D-day Gift?
I was just thinking while in a calming bubble bath, about life, death, and the in-between. I am 64 ½ years old, and in May 2018 I shall turn 65 years old. That is F***** OLD! Of course, we baby boomers will never admit it! For a moment I thought…..maybe on that day the Universe might give us the Birthday Gift of knowing the date when our life will be over, a Deathday Gift D-day?
It sure would be great for financial planning, communicating truth with our loved ones, cleaning out our “stuff”, and documenting our plans for end of life desires.
Having the courage to follow our dreams, doing that special thing for someone you love, taking that trip of a lifetime, and checking off items on your bucket list. This would be a gift, especially if your days are few. Even if your days are many, starting to accomplish this list now, would be a gift in and of itself.
I don’t know if I will get the Deathday Gift D-day, but while I am in the “in-between” I may as well begin the process! Some people may think this is slightly morbid thinking, but I think it is good to have a plan of action, be prepared, and anyway who wants to get blindsided by a sudden death. I don’t want all my “stuff” to be rummaged through by anyone but me.
I guess it’s time to get busy, I only have 5 months before I might get that special gift when I turn 65! None of us knows when our time will be up, could be a moment from now, a week from now, a year from now, or 20 years from now. It’s the big mystery of life, when your Deathday will be! Not great for financial planning….that’s for sure!!!!
Then there is the whole mysterious discussion about the “AfterLife” concept! I sure hope we don’t have to come back and do it all over again! I am looking forward to entering a new dimension, a new soul experience, and ideally becoming a form of energy, maybe as a butterfly or a hummingbird delighting those who experience my spirit, and letting them be healed in that moment in time.
I saw a butterfly today, came right by my kitchen window as I was looking out, at the same moment I was thinking to myself: Be positive, it’s all going to be fine. Seeing the butterfly healed me in that moment and I thought maybe it was a visitation from my Mom, since today would’ve been her 91st Birthday! In her physical form she has been gone 29 years. It is comforting to think of our loved ones continuing to visit us with their spirits, appearing as butterflies, hummingbirds, or whatever entity grabs your attention in that special moment.
I think the most important lesson in life is: Savor the MOMENTS, the In-Betweens, and always be prepared! None of us are getting out of here alive! Be Kind, Be Compassionate, Be LOVE.
Life just isn’t fair I guess. We hear that statement often enough. But why isn’t it fair?
In the meantime I guess we have to do our best to take what life gives us, and be as grateful as possible. There is always something to be grateful for. Sometimes it works for me to make a list of what I am grateful for, even during the most challenging times in my life. I do get solace believing in the mindset of: “This too shall pass” because it always does in one way or another. Change is the one constant in life.
Making lemonade out of lemons, having the best attitude as possible, and being of service to those less fortunate is always good advice. To give is to receive. It’s okay to feel sad, angry, and yell if you have to when life throws lemons at you. Once it’s out of your system, you do what you have to do to take care of the problems, and then it’s time to get out of yourself. Ruminating and worrying is not going to change what’s happened, so we need tools to learn how to accept and deal with our reality or new life script. I just read a great quote: “Life begins at the END of your comfort zone”!